D: Liminal Art Life: Studios; Homes; Migrations
PP Composition 3 2018
[Poetry was first published here in October 2018. The inquisitive among you can track the pertinent events/texts/images referenced in this entry by reviewing archived posts in the AFH News feed (2017-19). The AFH Flickr site contains several relevant albums chronicling the Brooklyn>Oregon years prior to and after the cross-country migration, including the SoCal storage side trip. Performance video below to set the mood — shout-out to my dear friend Wilson.]
Arcadia 10
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Minecraft means a different thing On a computer, underground, in database analysis Migration is no joke. If you imagine a body in a computer, underground, in a database, analyzed You can visualize movement sequences in each environment. You will notice variations, which you may find interesting, telling, as in revealing, demonstrating the differences in the environment(s).
He selects a water-rounded stone from many in the driveway. This one is heavy, relatively big, pockmarked, dark blue-gray and dense. He explains to me the stone is dinosaur poop. I say, “OH?” He assures me, YES, it is. I allow him to keep it, to place it in a cupholder, in the car. The story of the stone evolves. I like the sound of his child voice, its conviction, its of-a-certain-age complexity. Is that the marker for curiosity? Do I hear a note of uncertainty, or is he inviting me to respond, to ratify, to reinforce his narrative?In the woods, the deer sleeps at the base of a 100-foot pine tree, folded into a loop of golden hair, black hooves and nose, white tufts, breath, in measured blasts. I can see the stars again, and that is Orion’s belt. In the short hills across the valley, a cougar stalks among the shoots along the River, a vast waterway of sunken vessels, moving through the Night toward the Ocean. I can see it all and more through my looking glass, pointed out the window of the attic of our century-old house. I hear my child stirring downstairs, by the fireplace, under his blanket.
[Coastal Oregon]
[GOOD FAITH SPACE, Williamsburg, BK]
AFH Studio BK3
Ten years ago, in 2016-7, I rented a studio on Metropolitan in the Williamsburg/Bushwick area of Brooklyn to work on the VyNIL Cycle. I’ve written extensively about the project and compiled accompanying media (mostly photographic) documentation. VyNIL commenced with a few sets of experimental small painting/mixed media series done at the little round kitchen table in our loft. I had discovered Flashe vinyl paints at my local art supply store Artist & Craftsman (still my favorite ever) and tested them on several surfaces/substrates, using different techniques, before settling on one that made sense. At that point I was ready to commit to a production model, timeline and exhibition goal. Network was the first of several movements and subsets. Most of the Cycle hasn’t been exhibited in a gallery or sold. My initial plan/vision was to take a few years and produce a major show consisting of the entire collection for a museum-scale production. Ambitious, I know. For years prior I had operated on a 6-week to 3-month production turnaround program, which fit my 30s’ intensity/energy levels. After obtaining a pair of Masters degrees in the 2000s, followed by doctoral studies and OWS in the early 2010s, and embracing the rhythms of middle age I reset my workload/output expectations. The LA/NY/Euro Drift spanning that period decidedly reshaped my imagination’s horizon lines and the depth of my aesthetic sensibilities.
[Selections from Network (VyNIL Cycle)]
While I was opening up and turning, the world seemed to be spinning out or shuttering. The Great Redistribution, the ugly toxicity of polarization, deepening local-to-global schismatism were a perfect storm of chaos. Coalescing with rapacious late-stage Capitalism, technocratic erosion of democracy and cascading climatic cataclysm, these phenomena rolled down on us like a tsunami or the giant stone ball in the original Indiana Jones! So, the McLean family did what any post-war American does, when faced with grave danger [“Is there any other kind?”]: we packed up our shit and hauled ass across the continent. In 2018 — chasing a dream, literally —we moved to Astoria, OR, where I thought it would be possible to secure a large studio to complete the remaining (big) pieces of the VyNIL Cycle. But — wouldn’t ya know it?! Life got Lifey, first with the Pandemic & hash tagged civic disruptions like #BLM, #DefundthePolice and #MeToo [remember those?] et al., then with family illnesses and the ordinary preoccupations of parenting, small-town PNW NWC micro-drama and -leisure. TBH it took several years for my maxed out nervous system to readjust to the rural Oregon environmental baselines: barking seals v. sirens; bald eagles v. NYPD choppers & spotlights; and so on.
Rock Life
[AFH Studio BK5 | Selections from the Worknet series]
Flyer for YONDER
Nets (Astoria)
Once we settled in Astoria, and our belongings arrived from New York, we transported to our new home the contents of several SoCal/Inland Empire storage units we’d maintained at great expense. Once the big truck had been unloaded, I shot some photos of some of the valuable things/artworks we’d finally rescued from container limbo. Before the furnishings arrived I installed the VyNIL Cycle in our spacious century-old historic domicile and invited Astorians to an open house, drolly entitled “Home Show.” Scanning the step-by-step photo documentation of our intracontinental, bi-coastal translocation, I am truly amazed. What an epic undertaking! Especially when one can ponder it through an historical lens [Lewis and Clark are kind of a big deal in those parts of the Northwest. For me, the context/metadata is superimposed on the movements East-West/North-South [a minor reference to a nutty glitch Richard Tuttle performed, when we collaborated with him in the mid-90s in Santa Fe at Goldleaf]. There were so many weird structural echoes, overlaps and contingencies linking Astoria [NY/OR], starting with the obvious nominal reiterations, extending to the natural/manmade features like rivers/seas/bridges/ships, terminology and so on, with cool wrinkles [“nets”/networks]. I began to develop big project outlines from this rhizomatic web of datic/informatic + analog/digital connectivity almost immediately.
Home Show flyer
[Home Show (selected views)]
[Sadly] The obstacles to expository manifestation — logistical, material and cultural — popped up just as quickly. As an experienced art production specialist, I possessed the wherewithal to approach the mission from many angles, which I proceeded to do methodically. I don’t think here I’ll attempt an exhaustive recounting of all the measures taken, proposals made, applications submitted, interviews conducted, networking events attended, coffee klatches endured, emails sent, phone calls dialed to advance my agenda. I wrote project outlines, pitched business plans. I even authored a three-act play, created several syllabi/curricula, self-published online exhibitions and texts and revived my doctoral thesis. I even assembled a dynamite artsy/entrepreneurial team to launch a new FunkShunArt clothing line. In short, I continued with multimedia/-discipline creative production at the same loony pace I’ve kept most of my life. My effort was met with opposition at nearly every turn. Frankly, I was gobsmacked! Post-Occupy I’d been blacklisted, but this was different. Some of it could be attributed to provincialism, which can be muddled through and eventually overcome with persistence, a positive attitude and service to the community.Then a brutal realization hit me: there might not be a There, there, anymore. Like a salmon struggling upstream against the current, propelled by instinct to fight or die to spawn, it occurred to me that I might not get past the gauntlet of grizzlies, sea lions, dams and commercial fishermen, or that I might just give out. Then Lauren got the big C, and then [!] I had a stroke.
[Sample web-only AFH IG exhibit format]
Stone
[Post-Storage documentation for AFH IG exhibition, including EOTW selections]
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Twins, Gymnasts 14 [Part 1]
Pausing in a turn, we pivot, gazing at the Bridge. The Full Moon risen above the Column, beyond ~ Past the optimum angle for the photographer. To my eye, the mono optical version with a bit of blur, the scenes mesh and he and I smile, sharing the sensation of Time staging the event inherent in our temporary condition, a point at which the Vision may be confirmed by a knowing look. He is a fisherman. I am an artist. Now we are both travelers whose dimension is ever emerging, a continuum the medium of which is Memory. The vehicle is a machine. The sky periodically empty, unless Eddie Vedder's jet should cut a path through it, noisy and white. Compare that to the circling bald eagle. Both are emblems, representations, and autonomous of the external view, Real of themselves, compressed, expressive in a secondary, parallel World of definition.
Stability achieved through joining structure, the truss, does not explain the two does, standing side by side in the front yard of the darkened home, by the mailbox. Any more than it explains the Creek between the old Seaside road and the new one. Traffic over there is faster, denser, more dangerous, than we find on this one. Topology reflects the conception of Time, not its mutability. Tom describes George, the solitary crab in the tub on the pier by the jetty in terms of survival, profound endurance, fasting for 45 days in only water. A marvel. Need for sustenance appears to be relevant to the creature, only in perspective, I guess.
[AFH Shipping Art DIY Demo]
Partly my amazement at our migration story stems from materiality, pure and simple. In NYC between 2010 and 2018 I occupied seven studios. i’m including the Chashama/ChaNorth residency in Pine Plains,NY and I probably could add a fruitful stint at Austin’s Co-Lab, too. Not to mention the aforementioned Bushwick home studio, or the drawing/digital work done while attending EGS intensives in Switzerland. I present this list not to brag, but to impress on the art-casual how much of the art life is logistical. Every move involves de-/reinstallation, un-/packing, wrapping, bubbling, painting, cleaning, repairing, sorting, lifting, mailing and so on. The actual arting happens in between the not-glam/romantic labor. All of it requires money, and for almost all artists, the entire enterprise is done on spec. That is, the. art industrial complex/economy operates on the presumption that the artist eats the cost of production for a portion of retail sales. If an artwork does sell, the artist is cut out of the resale or secondary market. No residuals or royalties. I bring this up not to lament the exploitive art business model, but rather to juxtapose real art to its virtual cousin, especially AI-generated text-prompted images, both moving and still [noting that “moving and still” are not correct descriptors; more like metaphors or something]. The materialities are not a chore eventually. They are facets or art, and integral to it. Speaking from experience, as someone who has derived much joy in digital production, at times pioneering new media praxis, at the tip of the spear as they say, art and the are by no means equivalent. In a better world, that’d be just fine.
Beeple
[Have you checked out Blockchain Ape, ApeCoin or Bored Ape Yacht Club, or Mike “Beeple” Winkelmann’s goofy NFT $69 Million JPG Everydays collage fiasco lately?]
Bored Ape Yacht Club
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Twins, Gymnasts 14 [Part 2]
The twins’ father, I think, is a cop. I won’t allow this informed assumption to spoil the moment. Celtic law is fairly strict, and divination is messy business. Spatial separation is a negotiation these magic beings solve through intuition. He mentions the elder sister, describing her in thirds, implying triplets, a very different configuration, containing a gap. The twins subtly communicate the answer, at the edge of his perception’s limits. Do they always perform, I wonder? How big is their awareness of the Other? Its reach feels massive, an expanse outpacing reckoning. He tries to translate it in a word-picture about complex flips in a landing, and I recall a tiny Olympian spinning through the space within a TV screen, years ago.
Arriving home, I have a hard time sleeping. The distinctions between waking and dreaming dissolved in the movements. Cushions ease the discomfort, and the fireplace reduces the ache in these bones. Outside, the light is fantastic, filtered through trees and thorny brush, pooling on the unexpected, surface. The air is beautiful, fresh, crisp, my breath’s embrace. The tobacco intervenes, & I hear a Song from far away. It is not a ship, a postman, a radio, a lover, a birthday. My phone is not ringing. It is not smart. Or dumb. The wind rises slightly, but noticeably. I will not forget Standing Rock, so long as I live. No one can make me.
When you drill down into a droll first-person account like the one above, BEWARE! Digging through surface layers of recursion, oversimplification, compression, etc., you may caterwaul into Hyperbolia, a subterranean fantasia for psychic writhing and cavorting imaginaries. When you flush the proverbial partridge from the immaterial underbrush, your linear storyline can of a sudden resemble a pretzel. Your reflexive inclination may be to align your (in-)sights and BLAMMO! Murk that roundabout or curvilinear impulse! But if you go deep, if you risk full disclosure, you might just strike literary OIL! [Sorry. I am visualizing this passage as an animated sequence a la Painting with John, or Run, Lola, Run, or Kill Bill.] You know what? I’m a risk-taker, so I’m gonna go for it: The prosaic passage above glosses over the awfulness of my reckoning with the systematic hollowing out of our grand social continuum. [The inheritor of Manifest Destiny] The American Dream is what I was raised to believe in. Aesthetically, that myth-Promise evokes off-the-cuff associations with Gee’s Bend quilts, Miles Davis, Thomas Hart Benton, Frank Capra/Stella/Lloyd Wright and so many others.
BLAZE01
That concordant heritage, IRT/IRL, is being replaced, defaced and erased by AI, data centers and a cabal of ‘roidal hack geeks and their nerd minions. The hugest [cultural] Massacre of Mankind EVER, akin to obliterating thousands upon thousands of Alexandria Libraries, won’t be slopped and streamed via all electronic media, Once the Grid goes offline, it will be as if un-/off-scripted history never happened. Reality is Humpty Dumpty, now. Causality, our rationale for Doing, is the casualty of machine learning’s appropriation of Zero + Infinity in a dematerialized, amoral unified field, applied to the task of efficient threat reduction. Humanity will be threat numero uno. The technology poses an existential threat to us in another way. The crisis is in the mind-state of Why, the question situated between action and Void. Despair is epidemic in of those of us who for whatever reason get trapped in the liminal spaces, the gaps appearing in the physical logic binding the individual with the collective. Acute melancholia can arise when one perceives any and all cohesive schematic activity as meaninglessness, in the vacuum of value for reasonable doing. Within the parameters of the cybernetic hazard zone the meaning-abandoned mind dehumanizes other persons to the minimized status of NPCs, design anomalies, bugs or zombies. They are projected as flat or dimensionless placeholders, volume-less shades, or parasitic energy drains.
CROSSES
[Dear reader: Is that a flicker of recognition? Are the kids alright?]
GRAD1
Then, what? The plot snaps and the lamp dims. “We” [the cyber-mass-mtrix/senders + retrievers] are using mass technology to activate that dystopian mentality, which can be weaponized, channeled into a gross-scale psychotic break, actualized as genocide, or bio-/cyberwarfare or deleterious wealth redistribution/theft, etc. We are training ourselves via screens to be mass murderers, to “block/restrict” [dematerialize] people, make folks unvoiced/invisible with a click, to report/snitch on Others/[fellow citizens], alerting the platform/authorities anonymously, or mobbing our predesignated dissident targets with bile or worse. We are training ourselves to Die/Kill, over and over again, emotionlessly or without ritual, as an element of gameplay. Until you get the cheat code. Simultaneously we are “training” machines to be us. Madness.
SIM